Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Embrace the Fall

If I could fly, I would look for you
And we would wait for the night
Then together we would soar
Coaxing each other higher
With no direction but up
Finally exhausting ourselves
In the black spaces nearest heaven
With only stars above and stars below
Spent from this struggle
I would pull you close
Wrapped in each other’s arms
We would embrace the fall



If you would come with me.

Monday, January 19, 2009

A Winter Prayer

tomorrow let me raise my chin
and feel the winters chill on my face
let me feel the cut of the bitter wind
as it moves from me to its winters race

let me feel the cold burning into my lungs
my ribs stretching as I deeply breath
while no heat escapes the winter suns
and bitter colds encroach within sleeve

let me love the smell of winters breath
her white blanket here a token
the fallen leaves of summers death
covered now their firm grasp broken

the silent plunge from clouds on high
of brilliant white cathedral’s
there crystal forms together lay
a hundred million steeples

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Misunderstanding Cats

Some would say
its fun to play
when the cats away
but I would stay
for a chance to play
or to roll in the hay
almost any day
with the cat.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Only You

I said I love you
My lips so close to your ears
That I could taste
your desire
Pumping through my veins
I felt a smile pulling
At the corners of your mouth
As my world tilted
And I whisper
Only you

Am I Even A Man?

I saw you sitting with the other girls
but I didn't have the courage to say
hello
one word
five letters and my courage failed me

I could have said Hi
two Letters
maybe my courage could have shouldered that

I sometimes wonder if I am even a man
I see myself standing up to the crass man
shouting profanities at no one in particular
And I stand up for the crowd

facing the man
In my minds eye I act with square shoulders and directness
unflinching resolve
the kind that abandoned me as my shoulder fall

and I divert my eyes when I see you
sitting with three girls in skirts

So I wonder, am I a coward
would I sit like the rest of the sheep
bleating but never facing the wolf
or is there a courage separate
from the affairs of the heart

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Thursday, January 15, 2009

Gouge Out My Eyes

bright eyes
bare his memory
fed life’s fuel
making lust a famine
glutton that I am
love is empty
hollow praise
lying in my naked arms
wrapped in my words
naked words
make bare his heart
so far fallen
every moment closer to flight
this life, broken shards of remorse
words unsaid
deeds undone
love unloved
you said Id fine forever
I scream bullshit
without you
I am alone
dead but for this breath
must I leave those eyes
how long am I to wait
you my light barer
alone I choose the dark
gouge out my eyes
for I am not to see

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Is That All It Was

Someone called your name as we walked along
An old friend as far as I could tell
That’s when I realized
That I
Was with you
The two of us together
I was in love and you were just with someone, me
As we walked along you spoke about the future
The one without me in it
That’s not how you put it
That’s just how it is
But then you’ve never spoke about a future with me in it
But I’d never considered any other since we became
What?
Friends?
Not lovers.
But Friends?
Is that all it was?
Not to me
For you it was never anything more
Was it ever anything more to you?
Just polite conversation as we passed the time together
You were bound to me by polite politics, social norms
The polite trappings of people thrown together
But I was bound to you by something else

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Please Read this on the Plane, I love you!

I am sometime lost when I'm with you
I love you but I betray myself
and I guard my actions
when you were tired
all I wanted to do
was hold you in my arms
and feel you sleeping
so that you could have that rest
but if I held you in my arms
I would want to feel the flesh
from the small of your back
sweating against the flat of my hands
there is no prize to great or small
that I won’t steal from you
I will always be your thief
when you’re in Rome look up
and feel the warmth of the sun on your face
and when you do
know that I am her
in the dark without you
and that thousands of silvery stars
will hold no magic for me
as long as you are gone
ten days is too long
without looking in your eyes
I will be looking forward to seeing you
I dare you to call again once you return
and when you return
I dare you to tell me again
that you love me