My Struggle - Free Verse

This poem is about my frustration with losing a woman that I love and long to see again. Its not well done but it does illistrate how my mind works and how frustrated I am with my thoughs about this woman. This beautiful creature whom I fear that Ihave lost.


My Struggle - Free Verse

please, please please
don’t make me beg, so
Its down to this
I’m sorry I’m angry
I'm sorry I'm unhappy without you
I should have taken my own advice
but there’s only so much I can take
why couldn't I have just left you alone
why couldn't you have just left me alone
do you know that this is the real me
the strong me is just a thin shell
did you even want to know me
I was just that thing you wanted to play with
I was the stupid one, the fool
why did I fall in love again
I’m going to see you one last time
and I’m going to say goodbye so
don't mind the tears on my face
I hope that I will be strong, but I wont be
did you know that your with me in my dreams
how do I walk away from that
I’m going to say goodbye, but it wont change how I feel
and when I'm lonely I'm going to think of you
when I sleep I will be with you
when I’m not using it, my mind searches for you
there’s another life inside of me
In my dreams my life will be full
In my dreams I will be with you again
and I will dream about your face
In my Sleep you will fill my life
goodbye my life
Its going to be hard
but I need you out of my life
one more kiss could end it all for me
I can't play this game any more
I miss the color of your smile
how it gives color to my life when I'm with you
but I’m tired of living in the dark
please, someone
lift me up into the heat of the sun
how could I find my way back in to your arms again
There are a lot of things I cant be
There are a lot of things I cant say
how can I ever be me again
why would I ever want to be me again